Three weeks later…..
Keys in hand, Rachel stood on the porch to wave her sister
Robin off and then with a weary sigh turned to slot the now unfamiliar key into
the lock of the front door. When she’d gotten the call to say Nick’s father had
passed away, returning to California for the funeral was the right thing to do,
despite the fact she had despised the man. Leaving her bag at the door, she
stepped over the small pile of junk mail and punched the code in to disable the
bleeping alarm.
Silence descended around her as she stood in the hallway
gazing around at what was once her home, the shadows lurking in the corners
like ghosts beckoning from the past. Taking a deep breath she wandered slowly
through to the kitchen, pausing at the threshold to trace a finger along the
deep etchings carved into the woodwork that had marked the kid’s birthdays
every year. She’d gone crazy at the time, thinking Nick was raving mad to
vandalize what was their brand new home, but over the years she’d loved
watching how excited the kids were to see how tall they’d grown.
Moving through to the kitchen, she pulled open the blinds to
let in the late afternoon light, the sparse counter tops devoid of any sign of
normal family life. Everything was meticulously clean, the woman she employed to
keep an eye on the place did a great job but it was almost sterile looking, no
sticky finger marks or crumbs to fuss over. Setting her keys beside the
microwave, she wandered on to the family room encased in darkness from the
heavy curtains designed to keep sunlight damage to a minimum. She flicked on
the soft overhead spotlights set into the beams that ran the length of the
ceiling and let her eyes travel from the well-worn leather sofas set in front
of the brick fireplace over to the corner where Nick’s overstuffed leather
chair still sat with its scuffed Ottoman in place. Rachel stared at it for a
moment as images of him sitting in it laughing at her over his newspaper swam
before her eyes, she could almost sense him…….
The air around her suddenly became suffocating and she
abruptly flicked the light off and watched as the room fell into darkness once
more. Turning on her heels, she pulled the door firmly shut and went to
retrieve her bag from the front porch. She was starting to think coming here
had been a mistake, nothing felt right any more.
Framed photographs of the children floated past her as she
took the stairs up to the master bedroom where more ghosts waited to welcome
her, the large silver framed wedding picture catching her eye the moment she
swung the door in. Despair and anger welled within her, how could she move on...how could she ever be happy again when the past lurked so vividly before
her? Leaving her case in the doorway,
she turned and fled back down the staircase before she could change her mind.
Back in the kitchen, she scrabbled to find the set of keys she had left hidden
in a cupboard and breathed a sigh of relief when her fingers clasped the
plastic fob of the car key.
It was time to make some changes.
Hours later and after a delicious dinner at her parent’s
home, Rachel finally returned to the house she had once called home, now
swathed in darkness by the late hour. Flicking on the porch light and setting
the alarm to night mode, she headed back upstairs only pausing to collect her
suitcase from the still open door of the master bedroom before she swung the
door of Lauren’s room open. Decorated in soft lavender pastels, the walls
glowed warmly when she flicked on the bedside lamp and sank down onto the deep
duvet that hung neatly over the bed. She had slept in here for many nights
after the accident, seeking comfort in clutching the vast array of teddy bears
and soft toys that Lauren had collected since she was a toddler. Reaching
behind her, Rachel lifted one particular tatty looking brown bear and gently
ran her fingers over its frayed ears. He had been a gift when Lauren was born
and one that her daughter had adored even as she’d gotten older and moved onto
less childish items.
“Hey there old friend.”
She smiled softly as the bear stared silently back up at
her, her face reflected in his shiny brown eyes. Brownie had seen it all,
maybe it was time for him to see another part of the world and move back East
with her. Setting the bear back onto the bed and stifling a yawn, she jumped in
surprise as her cell began to vibrate in her pocket with an incoming call. It
was after two am and there was only one person she could think of who’d be
calling her at this late hour. Smiling happily at the caller id as she pulled it
out of her pocket, she pressed the button to accept the call and relaxed back
against the headboard.
“Hey….”
“Did I wake you?”
The soft honey tone of Jon’s voice instantly made her relax
and she sighed softly as she felt the tension of the past day seep from her
body.
“No but I wouldn’t have minded if you did.”
“ I've been lying here
for the last two hours and can’t go back asleep, I've come to the conclusion I
have too much room in the bed when you’re not here.”
Images of where he was floated through Rachel’s brain and
she couldn't help but wish she was there beside him. “Well, you’re doing better
than me….. I haven’t been able to wind down at all, still haven’t gone to bed.”
“What’s going on over
there, you okay?”
“ I'm just a little wired I guess, it’s been a busy day.”
“Are you alone?”
Rachel rolled her eyes at the insanity of his innocently put
question; somehow he could always make her smile without even realising it. “No
Einstein, I've got my California boy toy over here with me! Of course I'm alone….”
Grinning widely, she snuggled deeper against the soft duvet. “……wow, when the best part of your day is a middle of the night call from your favourite guitar player that’s really saying something!”
Grinning widely, she snuggled deeper against the soft duvet. “……wow, when the best part of your day is a middle of the night call from your favourite guitar player that’s really saying something!”
Jon chuckled softly down the line, concern still lining his
tired voice.
“Glad to hear
it……rough day huh?”
“Mmm…..being back here is…..it feels different….. different
than in New Jersey but kinda the same as it felt when I left – suffocating.”
“But you’re doin okay?”
Sighing Rachel paused to think about the emotions she had
fought with all day. “Yeah I'm doing okay I guess…….but the truth is this place
just doesn't feel like ‘me’ any more.”
“Meaning?”
“There’s a line from an old Rascal Flatt song that just
keeps lingering in my head, ‘I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t
belong’….. I'm happy to see my family of course but I'm so damn wound up I can’t
wait to get out of here. I feel like an outsider, it just isn't home now. I
don’t know exactly where I do belong
but I know it’s not here.”
“Remember when you
told me home is that safe place you land when the world is kicking your ass?
Well you do what you gotta do, get outta there and come home…to me…..okay?”
The reassurance in his words flowed like a warm tonic
through Rachel’s tired brain – he was right. Letting her eyes drift shut, she
kicked off her shoes and nestled comfortably back against the collection of
cuddly toys. Sleep was only moments away as she whispered down the phone to
him.
“Just as soon as I can……the minute I can…..I’ll be home.”
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The following morning found Rachel in a much better frame of
mind, somehow even the house seemed brighter and more alive as the aroma of
freshly brewed coffee wafted through from the kitchen. Perched on a bar stool, she reflected on the real reason she was here as she buttered a slice of
toast. She enjoyed Nick’s family, they were good people with the exception of
his now recently deceased father. Mr Braden had never warmed to her, always
making life difficult and going out of his way to be purposely unkind. She
never really had figured out what it was about her that had so obviously
bothered him but then again she had never cared enough to find out. Nick had
been nothing like his father, in looks or personality which she had ceaselessly
reminded him of.
Munching on her toast and with a mug of steaming coffee in
one hand, she slipped off the stool and padded in her bare feet through to the
family room. Entering this time without a shudder of dread, she swept back the
heavy curtains and looked around her as the vibrant, early morning sunshine
flooded the room. Flecks of dust floated through the air, highlighted in the
streams of light that bounced off the trophy cabinet on the far wall. Lauren’s
collection of towering cheerleading trophies still stood proudly in place,
surrounded by what had once been Tyler’s growing collection of karate medals
and awards. Rachel hadn't been too keen on the idea of her little boy bouncing
around flinging potentially injury inducing kicks to other kids when he had
first started to learn but when she witnessed the obvious talent he had for it,
she’d relented and actually quite enjoyed going to watch his matches. Turning
her attention to the bookshelves, she let her eyes wander over Nick’s huge
selection of music – she was sure they could have bought a holiday home
in Hawaii with the amount of money he’d spent on his collection over the years.
Chewing the last of the toast, she hunkered down to flick her fingers through
the CD cases, mostly bands she’d never heard of but that Nick had
spent hours listening to on his headphones in his leather armchair. About to
stand up, she froze when her finger landed on one with a name she instantly recognised.
“Well, well!”
Grinning she pulled it from the shelf and popped the disc from
its case to set it into the stereo system, shaking her head with a laugh when a
familiar voice came pounding out from the speakers.
‘Why you wanna tell me
how to live my life…………..and who are you to tell me if it’s black or white…..’
Turning the volume up, she grabbed the cd case and headed
back to the kitchen to snap a photo of the cover art with her phone. With an
amused smirk she tapped out a message to accompany it and sent it onto Jon.
Look what I found in
my CD collection! There’s no getting away from you! Have A Nice Day blaring
proudly from my stereo – impressed?
Still grinning she set the phone down and turned to power up
her laptop on the kitchen table. One of the advantages to her position in the
bank was that so much of her work could be done via the internet from virtually
anywhere in the world and given the time difference between the East and West
coasts she needed to see what kind of chaos had ensued since business hours
began in New York. Before she could get her email opened, her phone bleeped
with a text message.
Your taste in music
is as impeccable as your taste in men – miss me??
Tongue firmly in cheek, she replied with lightning speed,
her fingers dancing over the keys.
I miss some parts of
you more than others….. : ) xx
The reply that followed instantly made her snort in
amusement, her eyes rolling at the playful banter.
We miss a certain
part of YOU too – hurry home before I gotta take matters into my own hands ;)
Gazing out the back window to the back yard where so many
happy hours had been spent with her family, Rachel sighed softly. Life had been
good here, idyllic in fact but it was time to move onto her new life while it
was still waiting for her ……… in New Jersey.
This chapter brought tears to my eyes.. I can't imagine being in her position. So sweet that Jon called her in the middle of the night and that they both agree "home" is in NJ, together. awwwwwwwww..... Now please don't make us wait too long for more :) We will hunt you down on Twitter :P
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed that story, I laughed, cried, drooled and squirmed on my chair!! thank you for sharing your talent as a writer with us!!
ReplyDeleteI think understanding that the place where she felt like "home" was no more Nick's house in California but NJ is such an important step. Hopefully she'll be ready to let Jon be part of her new life.
ReplyDeleteSelling the house could help her move on with her life but could be traumatic, maybe bringing Brownie and other memories of her babies could help her make the transition less painful.
P.S. : I was expecting a chapter about the party or the private/naughty after party I was absolutely wrong.
Don't make us wait to long for another one!! Saw on Twitter, Audra said the best yet was coming in a few chapters.. EXCITED!
ReplyDeleteWell all I can say is very awesome! But ummmmm could we post a little more I had to re-read the entire story again LOL! Anyway have so missed Rachel and Jonny!
ReplyDeleteAw that was a tear jerker chapter...so sweet but..wow...I couldnt imagine that kinda pain...Makes for a wonderful story tho...Luv this story...
ReplyDeleteJulie
YES, agree! It's hard to stay involved with the story when the new chapters are so far apart!
ReplyDeleteJon needs to tell Rachel he loves her, she should move in, and they should live happily ever after :) But I have a feeling it won't be that smooth of sailing.... and it better not include jon cheating... hehehe!!! MORE MORE MORE!!!!
ReplyDeleteI have an idea.. how about a surprise post??? You know one we don't have to BEG for... TEEHEE!
ReplyDeleteEm... Audra... WE NEED MORE!!!!
ReplyDeleteSoon my lovelies.......SOON! :)
Deleteyahooooooooooooo! She hears our pleas!
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